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NOTE:  I wrote this when reading Book 7.  I am very proud of it, if I may say so myself, one of my best works.  I find it is very emotionally resonant!  I'd love to read YOUR comments on it.

It is best to not read this if you haven't seen the movies/read the books.  It just wouldn't make as much of an impact and may give away spoilers as well!

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All I Wanted
(Snape's Lament for Lilly)

I am not a bigwig or Daily star
And I am old and have not come very far
You always knew, didn't you, back in school
That you saw me, as you wanted, so very uncool

I am not strong nor am I a millionaire
Insulted me from my clothes to my hair
Weakened my strengths and strengthened my weaknesses
But I don't blame myself, instead I curse you (excuses, excuses!)

All I ever really wanted
It wasn't popularity or your money
All I ever really needed
Was to be accepted as I am
All I ever wanted
Didn't you hear it in my voice, see it in my eyes?
All I wanted was for you to see me as I saw you

I made a mistake that one dark day
When those friends of yours had their way
Turned my life upside down quite literally
And I snapped, at you, I didn't want you to see

Don't you remember, when we were younger
You starved to know yourself & I fed your hunger
We cared for each other, same despite our differences
Don't you know I was too hurt to take my proper chances

All I ever really wanted
Nothing crass or out of the ordinary
All I ever really needed
Was to be shown the way to stay with you
All I ever wanted
Thought I saw it there reflected in your emerald eyes
All I wanted was so close but so far away

Then came the day when you left but my love for you never went away
I kept it safe inside me, a fire forever keeping me warm despite the cold
Then I heard that he wanted to take you away from me forever
I had to be careful, but I couldn't stand there and not try
So I went to his greatest enemy, begged him to keep you safe

I wanted to see you again
I so wish I had gone to see you again
In my dreams I can go see you once again
But they turn dark, I can't stop,
I watch him murder you before my very eyes
I am paralyzed
As your life flashes before my eyes
I can wear no disguise
When it comes to you,
But only after you've been taken away from me.

But I get to see your eyes again, every day tho you're dead
Buried in a different face, one like the one you wed
Like fire and ice in the same place, inside my heart
It's your son, I hate him, I love him, I'm pulled apart!

All I ever really wanted
I never got to put the words out right
All I ever really needed
Was to learn the magic spell to do right by you
All I ever wanted
Your voice in my dreams your eyes now mocking me
All I want now is to see this through

I will protect him, I will be brave
I will push him to be more like you
I will play my part with no fear or doubt
I will show you that you are all I wanted

All I want is you, my one and only love

(Lilly, you will be with me, forever)
  • Listening to: the a/c going but it's still 80
  • Reading: Temple of the Winds (Sword of Truth 4)
  • Watching: TORCHWOOD, Falling Skies, Alphas, Warehouse 13
  • Playing: RIFT, Black Mirror 3
  • Eating: nothing right now
  • Drinking: nothing right now

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:iconwissa13:
YOU'VE BEEN HIT BY THE PRETTY ROSE!
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ONCE YOU'VE BEEN HIT , YOU HAVE TO HIT
15 OTHER PEOPLE. IF YOU GET THIS BACK
IT MEANS YOUR VERY PRETTY , SO START
SENDIN. IF YOU BREAK THIS CHAIN YOU WILL
BE CURSED WITH UGLINESS * DONT MESS UP
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*AcidBurn133 Feb 24, 2007  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey John, glad you found me on here! :) Can't wait til Heroes this week, I might have to do some more fanart - I started a "Save the Cheerleader, Save the World" pic this morning to add to the collection so far. haha. Great gallery, by the way, I'll have to check it out in more depth when I get a chance. Ttyl

Toni

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:iconjipsey:
thanx for teh fave ^_^

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:iconthesilverlining:
Hey! Thanks for the comment on the Winged Ones pic. I love hearing about other people who like KQ. ^^ Thanks for watching us too! :D
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:iconjipsey:
:hug: XD

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:iconjipsey:
thanks for the dedication i feel all special now...:giggle: :hug: :glomp: ^^

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:icontruthseeker:
you ARE special!

"you are star power!
you are earth flower!"
(from some poem I wrote)
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:iconcappling:
Thanks for the fav. friend. Have a great day!

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Because life is too beautiful to let slip past.
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*tirsden May 5, 2005  Hobbyist General Artist
:glomp: Wheee!! :heart: Thanks for the fave and the comments! ^_^ See you round the universe ^_~

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